GOOD STUFF:
I got my first chip in EDA on Saturday! A 24 hour recovery chip for sitting with my feelings instead of cutting. Sitting with feelings is MISERABLE. I wanted to cut so bad but I'm going to the airport today and they make you take off your jacket to go through security, which means my mom would see my arms. It's been hard work letting them heal for this trip but it was worth it :) But the anxious little voice in my head is like "I can't wait till this is all over so I can cut again..." And I won't be able to purge on this trip either...maybe if I drink some water in the shower and purge that, that's what I used to do in the hospital when I really needed to purge but couldn't get away with doing it with food. I really hope I can just get through this vacation without it though! I got myself a brand new journal though and since writing really helps me get through the pain I think I have a pretty good chance.
BAD STUFF:
Also, I have some scary, fat guy who is somehow infatuated with me :'( I hatehatehate creepy men. They scare the shit out of me and I can't take it! He started following me around in the morning and so I started spending my morning study time on other parts of campus where he wouldn't find me, but guess what? He found me!!! On facebook. After the first day of ignoring him I came home and already had 4 messages in my inbox from him. Four creepy, terrifyingly disgusting messages telling me that he has a "perverted mind" <----*his exact words* and that he wants to "hug and kiss" me and that I broke his heart. This kid has only known me for 4 days! WTF?! I finally told him to fuck off and leave me the hell alone (I said it a little bit nicer than that, but only a little bit) and then I blocked him. Hopefully he will forget about me by the time spring break is over so that when I get back to school I won't have anymore rodent problems. I was planning on posting the messages so you guys could see what I'm talking about but I have a plane to catch and I really don't have time to photoshop his name and picture out. I think I will post them when I get back though if he hasn't left me alone.
Okay, I'm off to Florida!
I love you girls <3 Have a good spring break!!
P.S. I updated my quotes page a couple days ago with intentions of updating it again today but Blogger won't let me upload any pictures :( Anyone else having this problem today? And this post was going to have thinspo too but all the pics are being rejected.
2 comments:
yay for getting ur chip it most of been hard but im proud of u
ew a stalker that is relaly creepy if he keeps it up u should reprot him
have funin florida
Congratulations on your first recovery chip!!! So proud of you, Becky- I know that sitting with the feelings and not cutting is super difficult, so congrats on proving to yourself that you CAN do it! :-)
I hope you can get through your trip without purging, too. I'm glad you bought yourself a new journal and that writing helps you get through the pain- writing helps me so much too. Hang in there!!
That's awful that that guy is stalking you- sounds really frightening!!! It sounds like you handled it really well, though. I agree with Dani- report him if he keeps it up!
Have an awesome time in Florida and do your best to be kind to yourself! <3
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