Wanna Hear Me Talk Shit About Myself???

I’ve felt like such shit lately. Like, my self esteem has plummeted to an all new low :( Which I wasn’t even sure was possible! 

They moved me up on my anti-seizure meds which made my face break out (Lamictal suuucks for that reason. Every time they increase dosage I break out for about 2-3 weeks till my body gets used to it) so now I walk around with my head down and my hair hanging in my face because I feel ugly.

I wear loose clothes everyday because even though I’ve lost weight, I feel fatter than ever and I want to just hide in a hoodie all day.

And lastly, I just feel like a complete fucking idiot because I had a seizure right in front of the guy I like! WTF? Writhing around on the floor making weird noises for two minutes- NOT sexy. Now whenever I see him at work I go the other way. When he saw me back at work he seemed genuinely concerned about me but my face was broken out and I felt super fat so I kinda just mumbled “Yeah, thanks” and walked away because I didn’t want to have a convo with the guy I like when I felt so ugly.

I tried wearing a paper bag over my head but it just looked dumb.